Off My Chest

So, today I got a lot off my chest to some people. I told this woman that I liked her and I wanted to spend some time getting to know her better. Keeping my fingers crossed. She seems incredibly intelligent. and She is incredibly beautiful.

I forgot that my Dept. Training was tonight..... Hopefully I don't get in a lot of trouble.

Miserable

After a long week I have come to realize one thing.... I am  miserable. I have very few friends. I have no means of finding someone due to this and due to the lack of availability to meet someone. I have been single for quite some time now, I would say nearly a year. I seem to always put others in front of me instead of me first. Like recently, but I've done this time and time again. Ill like a girl and my friend will too and I will talk to her making him sound amazing, then he goes and ruins her life..... Why do I always do this. I know I am a good guy and I know how to treat a woman but yet here I am the single one.

I guess it also doesn't help that I let my friends push me around and make decisions for me. I am just timid and easily persuaded. Not that I don't think for myself. I just like to make others happy.

I just really wish I could meet an amazing woman for myself instead of someone else...... Ugh... Sometimes I just hate being me....

First Blog.

What do I do here? I think I just talk about myself, my day, my thoughts, and my feelings....... What a long list to fill. I guess we can start with the most recent thing.....

Yesterday I hung out with an amazing woman. We did a few things throughout town.... Being a good friend and a good person, I put my feelings aside for my best friend to try and patch things up with his ex. There is a long story behind all this, but I'm not getting into it. Anyways, he and her have been through some rough times I kinda stepped in as a friend not really knowing her to give her support. Over the last couple of months she's become quite a good friend. I feel I can talk to her about anything even though barely knowing her.   I guess it's something about her that just allows me to be so open. She just seems like someone I can trust.

Two Weeks ago...

Recently I became a Volunteer firefighter. I don't do much currently. I kinda just sit around, answer the phone, use the radio, gather water, and do paperwork. I am currently training to become a full fledged Fireman. It takes about 20 hours of training, but we only train Tuesday nights. I am extremely excited to begin fighting fires and actually becoming more involved with the community.


School....

Right now school isn't going to hot... I'm failing Math and Computers. I hate partial online courses. my homework is on the internet. I always get distracted before actually making it to the school website.... I'm buckling down and fixing this problem but, I need to get my GPA up. But, my other classes are going well cause there is no online portion. :D

Well that's all for now. Time to watch some 24!!!!